I have been tortured by the world.
The world I meant is not the one in your mind.
Really, it is not.
I'm just too bore to describe it.
I found out something after I finished first few sentences.
I will write in English when I'm really dislike something, or really having a bad mood.
For example I say WTF when somebody use my pc without asking me first, just because I don't like it.
Apparently I am having a bad mood now, because I haven't really start cussing in English.
I don't really know why I like to describe what I am feeling right now.
I don't know why, in English also.
Cause I speak and write a very bad English, as you could see now.
Probably I'm tired in finding the correct word by hanyupinyin already.
I used to talk about why i'm having a bad mood, why I'm feeling down, etc.
But today I'm not gonna do the same, cause I don't really want to cuss all the way anymore.
I feel so sick in doing that already.
I was trying to find a stress reliever for myself a few hours ago.
But I couldn't make it.
That's quite sad for a person who don't have anything to be lean against at when his/her spirit is so tired to defend anything alone.
Suddenly I feel this, which I don't even know what I was typing when I scrolled up.
I'm in a park now, close to my residence.
Watching people jogging, kids playing with the facilities, cats look into my eyes when I walk past it, etc.
I think I'm trying to find something else to let my spirit have some peace.
Although I still feeling abit uneasy when the wild cats still staring at me while I'm just updating blog with my phone.
Singapore's night can be really peace, without many human faces.
At least in this moment.
Cause I could even count how many times the cat in front of me has licked it's leg, and how long it has stared at me just now.
Am I bore?
I just need something to let my spirit have some space, I guess.
No boss, no girls, no thinking abt what topic to talk in next second, no email, no please, no thanks and sorry, no cussing.
Walk around the world and come back, I'm still on my own, stand straight with my feet, without things to be lean against at.
Heart is getting solid and more solid. Someday I will change my name to Stone, I guess.
Another blog post, another mood.
I don't need a sleep to change mood.
Continue working for 7 days this week, too.
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Happy Be-early-ed Birthday, =)
I extremely feel like to call you these days,
but I'm just don't know how to pick up the time that left off already.
Yes I'm really that weird.
Thinking topics always not the thing I could do.
Just couldn't act so simple as you.
Happy Be-early-ed Birthday to u again... =D
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